If you want to be happy, you have to be happy on purpose. When you wake up, you can’t just wait to see what kind of day you’ll have. You have to decide what kind of day you’ll have.

Soaking up the final moments of summer. Since getting home from Sardinia I’ve just been in this place where I feel so happy about the holiday, so sad that it’s over, partly dreading the upcoming winter and also calm. I don’t know how that’s possible to feel all those things but also feel relaxed but that seems to be happening. I feel melancholy over the summer almost being over, it seems to have come by in a flash and now a long winter approaches us, and the added dread of a potential new lockdown which I pray and pray won’t happen. But even if it does, it’s out of our control, and that’ something I’m trying to remember. For a partial control freak, this year has been TOUGH to have no clue what’s happening, when it’s ending, what’s going to happen etc. I’ve really been trying to stay positive and think of all the good things but sometimes there’s a flash where I’m just freaked out and want to know a plan. I want to know when it’s really actually safe to hug my friends, when it’s really actually safe to travel. Or has it been safe this whole time? Who knows!

All I know, is that I really want to move abroad. I know deep down that England is not the place for me. I need, and want to live somewhere warm, with gorgeous beaches and a hot climate and surf and coconut shacks and where I can live in a bikini. That lifestyle and warm weather inspires me so much. It makes me want to take photos, it makes me want to write and I can swim without freezing. I was always planning to head to Bali this winter, that was always something I wanted to do, and I figured, if not now, when? But I’ll have to push that back to the next winter. But as the quote says, we have the power to decide our mindsets, to decide how we want to perceive things, to decide how we want to live. Everything we need is inside of us. In our minds, where we have all the answers.

Soaking up the final moments of summer has been perfect, and part of me it’s excited for jumpers, soups, pumpkin spiced lattes and pumpkin pie…

The Neighbourhood - Lost In Translation / Taylor Swift - Come Back…Be Here / Cigarettes After Sex - Apocalypse